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Showing Your Ass….again.

Posted in Jencerpts.. with tags , on July 29, 2011 by JenJuice

Essence of notability laughs in my face
When I expect you to have any sense of self
You’re the convict of and to himself
So mesmerized by your own junk trail of
Coldness and all alone-
The one the pigs follow and grin sullenly
Selfish and less than
You always were
Rationalizing criteria – the one that equate to dying
In your heartless fate
Wrenched in credibility and your entourage of yes men
Make you so sick
Looking around to give you the benefit
You look so ugly to me
Like the Drano of existence
Bottomed out and cried
You and your demands
Are worthless…
In this lifetime.

Beautiful boy….

Posted in Jencerpts.. with tags , , on August 13, 2010 by JenJuice

Sometimes I write with my right hand
And other times not
Like when I see you hit
The ground nine times running
Pounding with all you got –
You against the world
Cradle the victim sword and ridicule
Rocking back and forth
Please don’t go there no more
Cause you make every situation
An excuse to grope the bottle
Of intention
And the whiskey calls
Like the little boy that you are
Crumbles
In the middle of the broken rubble
When life swells the center
And you fall so deep under
That not even you surrender
can’t climb
The way out this time
I duck when you throw your woes
Buried in my rhymes
Calming my senses and
Running away from your ploy
Hit the bottle one more time
And don’t fall down the stairs
When you wind up so down
And buried in self hate and worry
You –
The tragedy of this beautiful boy…